We didn't get the house. We got closer than ever before in back-up position one but I feel devastated and so let down. You would think that we were trying for the last bit of beach property in Malibu and not an old house with a jank pool in West LA. I had so many dreams for redoing this house but it is over AGAIN. It is so hard not to become personally invested in each house as you have to LOVE it to bid a ton of money over asking price and then try and figure out the cost of redoing the house. You have to see the possibilities before you bid and that means dreaming and planning a bit. I feel so worn down and sad as each house consumes you for a week or longer. So much paperwork in bids, counter offers and disclosures. Unfortunately, we are not a family that can pay cash for a property so it feels like we may never get a house. Every time we lose out, I see more appeal to leaving the area.
No one has bought our townhouse yet. We showed our home to a kid whose dad is looking to purchase him a place. He was most concerned about the parking situation for his friends to come over and seemed uninterested in the whole buying nonsense. In unflattering moments, I imagine that he is the personality of the people we keep losing houses to and it makes me feel unkind.
LO and I went to Pretend City with the Nugget and another friend this week and she had a great time. She was on fire in the grocery store and mini house. She has been asking DH to take her fishing so she liked the mini fishing as well.
After losing the house, I needed
School has had some ups and downs but today was really great. We checked out yoga ballet in the morning before school which was way better than our usual ballet class. There were boys in the class and more stretching and stories and less annoying moms with attitude and weaves. Wednesdays are a 1:1 ratio of teachers to kids which she loves and gives me hope that one day LO will accept separation happily. I was even able to work on my bored expressions so that she would seek out the teacher instead of me when she needs help. I am really loving the school more and more. I have signed up for school sponsored stuff and bake sales and offered to volunteer. I love being involved so why not focus on LO's school.
I eat it daily. LO watches Curious George and Caillou on the iPad sometimes over an hour a day when I shower and pick up the house in the mornings. Don't judge me. I also have changed my tune on the Luxe series as recommended by Princess Nebraska. I had a hard time with the first one but bought the second one during a dry spell as she loved them and she is a real reader. Now, I am hooked and read the third one in A DAY!
I am back on. I need a kick ass bake sale item as the competition is fierce at LO's school. I was naive last time but I am going full throttle this time peeps. Will I spend more to bake and individually wrap the items than the school will make? Yes! Would it be easier to give the school money? Yes!! Will I sweat profusely trying to lug whatever down to the picnic and use choice words to DH? YES!!! Oh I have to pick my item NOW even though the