Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Future Horticulturist or Serial Killer

So I am going to check in about once a week around here? I see that some of you have given up on me which I TOTALLY understand.  I have kind of given up on me too.  I am going to go ahead and state that things have eased up a smidgen, kind of like when you have a baby and it gets a titch easier at six weeks? Mostly because all of our house showings stopped a few days ago which is TERRIBLE but a little easier on me.  Will someone PLEASE buy this place?!! For the love of all that is holy in this WORLD.  Other stuff that has been happening, hmmmmm.

LO is starting to like school a bit more and even walks without being carried at school for a lot of activities.  I attribute the change to the introduction of plant watering on day two.  I think she has a future in horticulture. I bought LO a small watering can and told her that she can be in charge of landscaping when we buy a new house.  One of the moms at school told me that LO seemed sporty and athletic. She also mentioned her short hair. Is that a compliment? 
Our school has the slowest separation plan possible as in you could stay all year if you or your child needs it.  I love that separation is family/child directed and I really do love the school.  I have slowly fallen in love especially after hearing a lot of horror stories.  The director is wonderful and always remembers LO and me.  The earliest that you can separate is at the end of the second week so when a mom stood up today and announced she was going to get a coffee for five minutes, I was a bit surprised but cool with it.  LO saw her leave and freaked out a bit but seemed alright and then the mom didn't come back for over an hour.  When I went to move the car for three minutes, LO lost her mind.  So I am a little bit confused on the whole separation thing but figuring that we will have to separate at some point.  I can only sit in toddler size chairs for so long.

We didn't get the house that I mentioned here.  I was heartbroken as usual but there is a new house and I love it.  There needs to be some updates like the lack of a DISHWASHER and the owner is taking the STOVE with him.  And there is a crusty old pool that I would like to fill in but DH wants it.  But there is a little pool house for changing your clothes-FANCY! So a new kitchen, electrical needs to be updated, no air conditioning and I refuse to take a shower until the moldy shower doors are replaced and the windows and doors need to be replaced before I can sleep there.  What do I like? The house is charming with its checkerboard kitchen floor and awesome covered patio.  I like that the cement has little foot prints from their kids that are now retirement age.  I like that the living room is all windows looking out to the backyard.  I see groovy pool parties from the seventies in the decrepit pool.  I see kids on bikes in the neighborhood.  The house was built in the late forties and needs a face lift and maybe a hip replacement but I see the potential.  This will only be the FOURTH house that we will be bidding on but I think we are getting better with each bid.  I can't sleep for a week during the process and then a week after due to stomach pain from my getting over it period but we are definitely improving.

I have also started exploring the next chapter in my career.  I am not starting anything until January when we will be settled in our new house HOPEFULLY but biz peeps seem to have a lot of faith in my ability to start my own little company.  I really want to work part-time putting LO first so I need to decide how that is going to work and ya know get paid.  I am sticking to my guns of taking six months without doing anything but meeting people for lunch and discussing opportunities is exciting.  It has been great to take a step out of the corporate world and decide what is next. Pool resurfacing doesn't come cheap.  

DH and I have also decided not to have another baby, WAHHHHHHHHHHH.   I am totally cool with it, I think.  Being in the winter of my reproductive years has been a little sad for me.  It is hard to say that there will be no more babies or births or first birthday parties.  I love, love, love being a mommy.  I am cool with the bottles, not sleeping and general newborn strangeness being over.  I just always imagined there being two and that one was a flamboyant homosexual who lived with me in South Beach or West Hollywood in my later years.  But it does make the whole career path a little clearer for me. 

Lastly, LO loves Curious George and watches him on the iPad (oh my private shame) and reads the books over and over again.  So imagine my surprise when she opened her bedroom door this am and called for me and then HAPPILY announced that she had destroyed ALL of her Curious George books.  I told her that we couldn't read them anymore and she helped me clean up the mess with a SMILE.  I mentioned Keyser Soze from Usual Suspects before but I may have texted DH to do a quick, "Is our child a future sociopath," check.  I am truly baffled.  What does it all mean???