Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Crow and Baked Goods

Oh hey! What is new with you? Here are my deets!

We didn't get the house.  We got closer than ever before in back-up position one but I feel devastated and so let down.  You would think that we were trying for the last bit of beach property in Malibu and not an old house with a jank pool in West LA.   I had so many dreams for redoing this house but it is over AGAIN.  It is so hard not to become personally invested in each house as you have to LOVE it to bid a ton of money over asking price and then try and figure out the cost of redoing the house.  You have to see the possibilities before you bid and that means dreaming and planning a bit.  I feel so worn down and sad as each house consumes you for a week or longer.  So much paperwork in bids, counter offers and disclosures.  Unfortunately, we are not a family that can pay cash for a property so it feels like we may never get a house.  Every time we lose out, I see more appeal to leaving the area.

No one has bought our townhouse yet.  We showed our home to a kid whose dad is looking to purchase him a place.  He was most concerned about the parking situation for his friends to come over and seemed uninterested in the whole buying nonsense.  In unflattering moments, I imagine that he is the personality of the people we keep losing houses to and it makes me feel unkind.

Fun times
LO and I went to Pretend City with the Nugget and another friend this week and she had a great time.  She was on fire in the grocery store and mini house.  She has been asking DH to take her fishing so she liked the mini fishing as well.

After losing the house, I needed a toddler to throw herself on the ground and scream  a distraction and decided to head to Michaels to pick up some crafty items.  We bought some pumpkins and foam stickers and decorated.  LO loved the project as it kept her occupied for over an hour and let me make dinner all for seven dollars.  She made 12 pumpkins and has declared her art too special to gift which had been my original intention.  So we will decorate them as garland for her room and maybe pick out a few that can be shared.

School has had some ups and downs but today was really great.  We checked out yoga ballet in the morning before school which was way better than our usual ballet class.  There were boys in the class and more stretching and stories and less annoying moms with attitude and weaves.  Wednesdays are a 1:1 ratio of teachers to kids which she loves and gives me hope that one day LO will accept separation happily.  I was even able to work on my bored expressions so that she would seek out the teacher instead of me when she needs help.  I am really loving the school more and more.  I have signed up for school sponsored stuff and bake sales and offered to volunteer.  I love being involved so why not focus on LO's school.

I eat it daily.  LO watches Curious George and Caillou on the iPad sometimes over an hour a day when I shower and pick up the house in the mornings.  Don't judge me.  I also have changed my tune on the Luxe series as recommended by Princess Nebraska.  I had a hard time with the first one but bought the second one during a dry spell as she loved them and she is a real reader.  Now, I am hooked and read the third one in A DAY!

I am back on.  I need a kick ass bake sale item as the competition is fierce at LO's school.  I was naive last time but I am going full throttle this time peeps.  Will I spend more to bake and individually wrap the items than the school will make? Yes! Would it be easier to give the school money? Yes!! Will I sweat profusely trying to lug whatever down to the picnic and use choice words to DH? YES!!! Oh I have to pick my item NOW even though the battle picnic is five weeks away.  Watch your back, betty crocker.

Wednesday, September 12, 2012


I think I fixed the blog and comments should be a lot easier but I did remove Intense Debate as I was having issues that I couldn't fix.  Meh, I'm not a genius with the computer.  Sorry for all the issues, peeps.  Let me know if you have any more problems.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Future Horticulturist or Serial Killer

So I am going to check in about once a week around here? I see that some of you have given up on me which I TOTALLY understand.  I have kind of given up on me too.  I am going to go ahead and state that things have eased up a smidgen, kind of like when you have a baby and it gets a titch easier at six weeks? Mostly because all of our house showings stopped a few days ago which is TERRIBLE but a little easier on me.  Will someone PLEASE buy this place?!! For the love of all that is holy in this WORLD.  Other stuff that has been happening, hmmmmm.

LO is starting to like school a bit more and even walks without being carried at school for a lot of activities.  I attribute the change to the introduction of plant watering on day two.  I think she has a future in horticulture. I bought LO a small watering can and told her that she can be in charge of landscaping when we buy a new house.  One of the moms at school told me that LO seemed sporty and athletic. She also mentioned her short hair. Is that a compliment? 
Our school has the slowest separation plan possible as in you could stay all year if you or your child needs it.  I love that separation is family/child directed and I really do love the school.  I have slowly fallen in love especially after hearing a lot of horror stories.  The director is wonderful and always remembers LO and me.  The earliest that you can separate is at the end of the second week so when a mom stood up today and announced she was going to get a coffee for five minutes, I was a bit surprised but cool with it.  LO saw her leave and freaked out a bit but seemed alright and then the mom didn't come back for over an hour.  When I went to move the car for three minutes, LO lost her mind.  So I am a little bit confused on the whole separation thing but figuring that we will have to separate at some point.  I can only sit in toddler size chairs for so long.

We didn't get the house that I mentioned here.  I was heartbroken as usual but there is a new house and I love it.  There needs to be some updates like the lack of a DISHWASHER and the owner is taking the STOVE with him.  And there is a crusty old pool that I would like to fill in but DH wants it.  But there is a little pool house for changing your clothes-FANCY! So a new kitchen, electrical needs to be updated, no air conditioning and I refuse to take a shower until the moldy shower doors are replaced and the windows and doors need to be replaced before I can sleep there.  What do I like? The house is charming with its checkerboard kitchen floor and awesome covered patio.  I like that the cement has little foot prints from their kids that are now retirement age.  I like that the living room is all windows looking out to the backyard.  I see groovy pool parties from the seventies in the decrepit pool.  I see kids on bikes in the neighborhood.  The house was built in the late forties and needs a face lift and maybe a hip replacement but I see the potential.  This will only be the FOURTH house that we will be bidding on but I think we are getting better with each bid.  I can't sleep for a week during the process and then a week after due to stomach pain from my getting over it period but we are definitely improving.

I have also started exploring the next chapter in my career.  I am not starting anything until January when we will be settled in our new house HOPEFULLY but biz peeps seem to have a lot of faith in my ability to start my own little company.  I really want to work part-time putting LO first so I need to decide how that is going to work and ya know get paid.  I am sticking to my guns of taking six months without doing anything but meeting people for lunch and discussing opportunities is exciting.  It has been great to take a step out of the corporate world and decide what is next. Pool resurfacing doesn't come cheap.  

DH and I have also decided not to have another baby, WAHHHHHHHHHHH.   I am totally cool with it, I think.  Being in the winter of my reproductive years has been a little sad for me.  It is hard to say that there will be no more babies or births or first birthday parties.  I love, love, love being a mommy.  I am cool with the bottles, not sleeping and general newborn strangeness being over.  I just always imagined there being two and that one was a flamboyant homosexual who lived with me in South Beach or West Hollywood in my later years.  But it does make the whole career path a little clearer for me. 

Lastly, LO loves Curious George and watches him on the iPad (oh my private shame) and reads the books over and over again.  So imagine my surprise when she opened her bedroom door this am and called for me and then HAPPILY announced that she had destroyed ALL of her Curious George books.  I told her that we couldn't read them anymore and she helped me clean up the mess with a SMILE.  I mentioned Keyser Soze from Usual Suspects before but I may have texted DH to do a quick, "Is our child a future sociopath," check.  I am truly baffled.  What does it all mean???

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

First Day of School

LO has been talking about school for weeks and she was excited to start today until I asked her to take a picture in front of the door with her new dress.  I learned from last year and let her pick it out.

Ok, maybe let's try inside with your new chair that had to be BLUE and necessitated a massive SEARCH for the exact color.

 After establishing that this was NOT school as it is a new campus, she let me take a picture.  Lovey was included but she isn't screaming.  She even seems a little excited except when we got inside and I had to carry her to each new activity even washing her hands.
 School is fun!

And then at the end of the day they read Llama llama Misses Mama and told a story about how kids get left at school and mommies leave and always come back.   LO started silently crying even though I was sitting right next to her.  She saw the writing on the wall and was pretty upset.  I am a little worried but hoping for the best.

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Am I Still A Blogger If I NEVER Blog?

Hey, it's me and I am still alive.  Barely.  We finished everything on the house and then hightailed it to Sacramento so that we could keep the house clean and fresh and DAMN the person that forgot to water my newly planted backyard (planted on the hottest day of the YEAR) while we were away.
Backyard planter before it died 
I was like a crazy person before we left trying to make it all so PERFECT but I figured that I could drive to Sac and rest for a week.  Hmmmm that did NOT happen as there was SO MUCH FUN to be had and people to visit and wine to be tasted.
LO loved playing with her cousins except when they tried to hug her
Berry picking with Mikey
LO titled this scene as "Two guys in a wagon."
My partner in wine crime and gut rot
We had a great time but I was a walking zombie by the time we returned and felt sooooooo tired.  LO pretty much NEVER slept while we were away MAYBE due to the smallness of the Baby Bjorn travel crib so I didn't sleep that well.  
Sometimes when you are sleep deprived, you just go with it.
I don't even know what happened here as my dad doesn't play the guitar.
LO slept a grand total of ZERO minutes during the 13 hours in the car.  
She is also going through some major separation anxiety which is understandable given all the changes.  But hot damn, sometimes a GIRL needs to use the bathroom without holding a TWO YEAR OLD.  I am sure that every person that stops working goes through a period of getting crap done that has been piling up for YEARS and then everything adjusts, RIGHT? If not, I am going back to work.  Just kidding as being with LO is SOOOOO awesome.  She drew me a picture today and on the SAME sheet of paper was a street, balcony, car seat, moose and MADONNA.  What more could a gal ask for?

K sent me the most awesome card which made me more excited for New Orleans as I have been feeling a bit nervous about going.  Far flight, away from LO, house issues, oh my!