Since my drastic cry for help earlier this week, not much improved. DH still worked late and still didn't help with any of the medications. I medicate Mama cat three times a day with five different medications through her feeding tube and LO three times a day with two different medications. In between trying to coax LO to chew and swallow solids in time for her birthday, I feel like a damn nurse. Staying home full time with LO is wonderful as I am around for all the fun stuff like the cuddle and open mouth kiss/sneeze when she wakes up from a nap and the first steps BUT it is so physically exhausting. I feel like a short order cook, maid and entertainment clown plus the nurse thing.
I am so sad that all of the outside the house jobs have such stiff competition as I feel really qualified and I get a good response from my interviews but there is always someone that is more perfect for the position. I have to say that every position has come with a big drawback so I am sad to be unemployed but not really that upset about losing out on the jobs. There are still some "doors open," but I am trying to move forward in a "that job is dead to me," fashion.
Unfortunately, it is expected that I will take on ALL of the house and baby responsibilities which leaves me a little bitter. I can see how stay at home moms would feel taken advantage of and not appreciated. Hallelujah to them as going to an office is way easier. I hate to say that I don't want to be with LO every second but I want her to be proud of me and give her everything like clothes and food. Also, damn that Janie and Jack store as they are having a friends and family discount this weekend JJFRIEND so I had to indulge in some Spring Green and Tailored Tulip nonsense. In my defense, she will probably talk soon and then NEVER let me dress her.
I also indulged in a 5 pass Groupon to some weird play gym with a bunch of crappy toys 15 miles away because it was a "deal." We visited earlier this week and I made a promise not to let her go in the ball pit as they are such germ factories but she freaked out until I let her go in. Here she is savoring in the grossness.
Also a pic of one of the three delicious varied meals that I feed her daily that falls out of her mouth instead of into her stomach. Yes, that is our laundry behind her as that is how we roll.
2 years ago